Cannabidiol (CBD) has changed my life when it comes to coping with anxiety. I was never a weed-smoker or touched any weed products up until my final year of university. In my final year of university, I was taking 21 units (full time is 12) and trying to cope with the stress of being an English major. There were always multiple long papers to write and pages upon pages to read, and trying to juggle homework with attending class, an internship, and maintaining a semi-stable social life was hitting me like a ton of bricks.
Anxiety is a problem I have dealt with my entire life. I’ve been uncomfortable in classrooms, been overwhelmed by simple tasks, overthinking everything, for as long as I can remember. I suffered from terrible obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) for two years because of my anxiety. I remember wondering, did I cross paths with a witch? I feel cursed. The anxiety was bad. I suffered all the time. But I managed to get control over the OCD before high school and create a controlled exterior for myself so nobody could tell how anxious I was on the inside.
By the time my final year of university rolled around, I was struggling from all of the expectations I had of me. I had to graduate Spring 2018, and I was nervous that the universe would conspire against me by not letting me finish school. Slipping up and forgetting a major assignment would have been only too easy since I had so much on my To-Do list each day. As I said, I was taking almost double the amount of units that a university recommends, and I was multitasking with outside activities. I could feel myself start to slip, and I panicked because I had come so far with controlling my mental illness and I didn’t want to lose that grip I had on it.
In one of my classes, I had made friends with an awesome person who managed to guide my way into the weed world without overwhelming me or scaring me off (something that is sometimes too easy to do). I told her I was struggling but I didn’t want to be high, and she recommended CBD oil. She took me to a dispensary, I bought my CBD oil, and thus entered the gateway in the CBD world.
I began by taking CBD oil under my tongue or in my coffee before class. The only downside to the oil is that it can take up to two hours to take effect. Even so, I absolutely noticed a difference in how I felt sitting in class. One of my main sources of anxiety is sitting in classrooms. It probably stemmed from teachers who have degraded me in the past. CBD helped me to sit more comfortably in class and cope with the hour and fifty minute discussions. I began to look for something stronger, now knowing that I could handle it, to manage the rest of my day to day struggles.
I started using CBD in the form of cartridge pens, and I haven’t looked back since. The effects of CBD are more instant when used in the form of a pen versus oil drops. CBD allows me to feel calm and gives me the ability to manage my day to day life without the distraction of being high. Having multiple tasks to complete in one day no longer overwhelmed me, and I was able to get everything done. CBD oil gave me freedom from my own clustered thoughts, and instead put my thoughts into an organized list for me to check off as I function normally.
I had tried other methods to make my anxiety manageable. I have tried pharmaceutical prescriptions with terrible side effects, and I have tried natural herb remedies such as Theanine. I was scared of anything relating to weed for the longest time because I thought it would cause me to lose control over my life. Mental illness is incredibly difficult to live with and is not handled well in society, so it’s important to figure out how to cope!
CBD has helped me to function comfortably throughout my day, and I hope that it can help anyone else struggling with anxiety!